Tuesday, March 01, 2005
lalalahhs
okay
wad a nice day
i hate everything now
yarr
hate lohh
hate myself
most impt.i realised i can be AP
woots
great job.shiya
i can be wor
just amazed at my er.actions
woahhh.
i did that?
wateva
i really feel APed
i feel ruined
by yarr
RUINED is the word
like i dun wan
i said really dun wan
to classify us to teams
it sucks can
and like you guys really no need to say
its obvious
we can see
and we know
at least i can feel all this happening
den there's competition here and dere
evrybody's so
"oooh.im 5 de"
"wheee.im * de"
"im * de.you are nc5 de"
"eeee.you nc5 de arh?"
yarr.great lohh
like okay
we know kay
we know
and I KNOW
we aren't those like potentially inclined sort of ppl
oh.wait
im not
Im not
maybe other pl in nc5 are de
den you cum cum cum blame mee okay
like i really hate being number one
its like so stressful
and like yarr.
you are number one.
so the whole world expect you to be like the best
and if you aren't
like me i aren't
den yarr
so lousy
yupps.
i totally agree wit that
LOUSY
and im toking about nc5 de number one kay
great job
its stressful lohh
very can?
i also want to be number 2,3,4
i also want to be potential
like who dun wan?
yarr yarr
great
thanks thanks thanks
thanks a great LOT
yar.
like thanks fer all these constructive encouragements
and comforting words
thanks for being so pro when im already stumbling right dere
thanks for all that
woots
suddenly feel i can really sacras
seems that the world all sacras
and if i eva offend anybody here rite
im so sorry
im just on my qi tou shang
and im fuming like crazy now
FUMING lohh
i dun blame anyone
i blame myself kay
cos im stoopid kay
i carn remember a single damn thing
i carn lead for goodness
and i am not SEH
not steady
not anything
or wateva you expect me to be
IM NOTIM NOTIM NOT
in the first place why choose me to be number one?
go get sumone better
saves me such pain lohh
shucks
wtf
=x
vulgar
wooooo
im getting vulgar
sorry /. .haisss
wad can i do?
like we told you guys le lor
okay
no need
you guys can see for yurself
no need to question
if we are of like dat standard
we are like that
give me a break can?
im so damn tired
its xin ku being so enthu
and when you dun do things the way ppl want
or you just dun get invovled
and you just slack for abit
ppl say you AP
WTC
its really crap lohh
so.its all blaming myself again
blame myself for being enthu
blame myself for
decieving ppl that i can make it
that i can lead my team to greater heights
and now landed my self into this
THIS
how nice
_______________________________________________
okay
vented
full-stop
________________________________________________
pathetic person
me
shiya
________________________________________________
okay
i took this from my blogg
and it seems i really APed mann
actually can de lor
i can just like be real
REAL ap
slam my FA bk and just go away
woots
wheeeeee
nvm
im just venting my anger
dun take it too seriously bahh
heck larh
yupps
wat chenen say was right
we mus jaiyous
BUT
dun expect too much frm us kay
like yar
you know
you should if you read my post
yupps
like now i really dun like being wit anyone who's not nc5
no sense of belonging at all can?
its like even wit sum very fierce mams
i can feel their ku xin cos they are part of nc5
den i dunno for now
but there was a period of time dat nc5 really worked hard
really
den sum negative things came along the way
and POOF
we gone down down donw
yupps
like a bullet shot in the wrong way
yupps
but like who made us feel this way?
wat made us feel this way?
ahems
watevva
liek eva since mock comp
nc5 liek so morally down
cannot even do a single thing rite
yupps
and more and more ppl cum da ji us lohh
like wad
haiss.you all nc5 so slack de
you all wont go comp de
standard so lousy
OKAY
we know can
no need to say it infront of us
even if you dun mean it
like use yur brain
just imagine how much dat hurts?
yar
maybe sum ppl carn
cos they foreva pro de mahh
potentially inclined
so?
np de
crap lohh
yarr
like when did we eva say we will go into comp?
like we even want to?
we dun want lohh
like we got xin zhi du ming
by going into comp now
we will just disgrace oursleves
disgrace sj
disgrace ahs
so go for wat?
esp wit so many ppl
thinking that we cannot make it de
do you eva think we stand a chance to win?
i can tell you lohh
NO
NO
NO
NO
NO
NO
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
okay
i think i should really stop now
really if not i wld just go ard
liek offending ppl
but i just wanna say sumthing
to those that look down on us rite
an adivce:
dun think you guys very pro also
OKAY
and a real thankyou frm the BOTTOM of my heart
to those who are really nc5
those very supportive of nc5 de
those that dun mean any sacrasm at all de
and those who hv their trust in us de
thankyou
thankyou
((:
* the passion to carry on
Y
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